First, get rid of your scale. Your scale is the worst enemy you can have. Second, stop and think for a moment? Are you happy? Were you happy when you were at your lowest weight in the hospital? Will really losing weight make you happy? You seem like you are very intelligent, and I bet the answers to those questions are no, no, and no. But you can’t stop, I understand. However, you need to reflect and try to determine the meaning behind your eating disorder. Why are you starving yourself? What other part of your life are you trying to make up for? Do you have a lack of control somewhere that is important so you are making up for it by controlling what you eat? If you try really really hard to think about those things and can identify other areas of your life that may be impacting your ED you can work on those areas rather than focusing on not eating. Also, I would suggest therapy. Not a hospital, just psychotherapy and possibly a nutritionist. Yes, it may sound horrible right now, but overcoming and eating disorder is not something you do alone. Yes, you need to be willing to change and are the driving force, but without support you can’t get there. Also, writing down a list of pros and cons to your ED may help to visually see how much you are hurting your body and how there are practically no benefits whatsoever to continuing this lifestyle.

Does anyone else have advice for this anon?

Since I don’t have all the details I can’t tell a specific diagnosis, but if anything you definitely have EDNOS. You are at a perfect weight for your height right now and although it seems like being 98 pounds will make you happy, it won’t. Talk to an adult you trust about getting some counseling before this spirals even more out of control. Please <3

It sounds like you are definitely on your way to having an eating disorder if you do not meet criteria yet. The next step would be to get help. Talk to a teacher or another adult you trust (since you are younger than 18) and have them get you into therapy. How you are feeling are not “normal” feelings. Nobody should beat yourself up like you do. Please talk to a counselor and he or she can give you coping skills to handle these situations.

Oh and fuck what those kids said, you are absolutely beautiful dear <3

The DSM definition of a binge is: eating a larger amount of food than normal in a short period of time (2 hours) and not having control over eating during the binge. There is not a certain number of calories you have to consume to be considered binging; it just has to be significantly larger than a “normal” person would eat.

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Yes, it sounds like you meet the criteria for anorexia nervosa. Please, please get help ASAP. Talk to an adult you trust that can get you into counseling or an inpatient program. You are severely underweight for your height and if you only eat when you pass out your body is lacking significant nutrients that it needs to function. If you keep up this cycle your body is going to shut down because of organ failure, and possibly death. Please get help.